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01:40am 11/07/2009
 
mood: contemplative

This heat is unbearable and i'm tired of wating for these people to respond back. It has been quite a while since I've posted anything. Not much has really gone on i am still the same person really. I'm close to finally graduating! I finally get to begin a new chapter in my life I was getting a bit restless there for a moment. It would be nice to meet someone genuinely interesting for a change. Everyone seems to be chasing the same things in life. Good bye for now.

 
     
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02:25pm 24/04/2007
 
mood: amused

I dont care about old folk. He he great song, anyway I cant believe I still have a live journal. Its a good thing I do! I'm in a bit of a chatter box right now, well too much has gone on in this past year, I really dont know where to begin? hmmm on June 4th I finally leave! Well to Kansas State University that is. Im not going to lie it is pretty nerve racking but I do feel the need to move out and learn how it is to be an independent individual. I will be 1000 miles away from my home but I think I'll be fine, what else....hmm I think im a hippie now i just stopped caring about my image and now i spend most of my time smoking cheap cigarettes and reading books about philosophy and biological sciences. Yes I do still continue to get belligerent drunk on time to time. I'm still true to the gym I think its made me in a narcisistic prick if you ask me but hey what the hell!? who isn't now a days right??? Well i'm done for now but one more thing! I was reading my old journal entries! JESUS was I was depressing and lame! I'm glad to assure you all that there will no more depressing comments!!

 
     
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03:09pm 22/03/2006
 
mood: contemplative
man i need to find my own piece of mind, all i do know is bust my ass in school
i want to move out but then i dont cause ill feel like im leaving my heart in el paso.
i dont know what to do, theres so much out there to see and do but theres so little time.
college is hard, UTEP is really beating me up.
sorry about the strange mood but right now im just swamped with thoughts..
till pencil meets paper
 
     
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01:04am 11/03/2006
  i miss this so much
i miss being able to spill my heart on this, now is the perfect time to come back.
theres so much going on in my life its amazing
ive grown so much, and learned so much this will take days to let out, for now ill stop here but i will begin tomorrow
 
     
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05:59pm 17/10/2005
  see you around....

the end.
:(
 
     
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09:59am 12/10/2005
 
mood: empty
i hate feeling like something is missing.
i hate knowing that its all over.
the laughs are done the times we spend being young and in love.
i suposse all great things in life arent meant to last forever.
but her smile and love will forever be in my heart.
just like still frames, these turnings points in life really beat you up.
true love can be so unpredictable.
but i know i can say that all this was worth every minute i spent with her.
i'll never forget my one and only....


And I will flail under these lights that seep down from the bitter sky tonight
and I will kick and beat my wrists together
and feel an ocean breathing waves, feel them licking at my face.
Ceilings don't exist and there are no floors beneath me.
If I were king of this night, would you become my queen?
And I hope, your majesty that you like your position.
I'll do everything I can to keep you by my side
and I'll stare off through the darkness to find us a kingdom.
Just kiss me before I go.
I'll have to walk a thousand miles just to find the ground deserving of your feet.
You could throw me down and walk on me
and I'd just look on through my love and through the haze.
And I hope, your majesty that you like your position.
I'll do everything I can to keep you by my side
and I'll stare off through the darkness to find us a kingdom.
Just kiss me before I go.
The nightingales are singing now.
They're calling out our marriage to our subjects on their knees.
Their jewelery is thrown into the air.
They sigh at their release as their shackles hit the ground.
The trumpets call out now.
We're home at last.
And I hope, your majesty that you like your position.
I'll do everything I can to keep you by my side
and I'll stare off through the darkness to find us a kingdom.
Just kiss me before I go.
 
     
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I love brittany   
11:33pm 12/09/2005
 
mood: ecstatic

New Kids on the block Bitches.......

http://i7.photobucket.com/albums/y252/midnight_show04/2.jpg

 
     
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01:35pm 27/08/2005
 
mood: crushed
i feel so empty.
although life does continue it still hurts.
i cant help but say....
 
     
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03:54am 27/08/2005
 
mood: empty
i missed her tonight..i missed that call.. :(
G'nite sweetdreams....chunk-a-lunks
 
     
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02:29pm 26/08/2005
 
mood: disappointed
How can you just walk away from me
When all I can do is watch you leave?
'Cause we shared the laughter and the pain
And even shared the tears
You're the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now
There's just an empty space
There's nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face
But take a look at me now
There's just an empty space
And you coming back to me is against the odds
And that's what I've gotta face

I wish I could just make you turn around
Turn around and see me cry
There's so much I need to say to you
So many reasons why
You're the only one who really knew me at all

school is tough.
 
     
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01:10pm 17/08/2005
  i dont know what id do with out my dad.  
     
Who loves me?
 
   
11:19pm 15/08/2005
  What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time
Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here
Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right
Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
 
     
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its all haunting you..   
06:48pm 15/08/2005
 
mood: anxious
oh man...my summer is about to end in exactly a week. Its safe to say that it was an awesome summer. It was great meeting new people and hanging out with my friends and brittany, but unfortunately all good things must come to an end. Its ok though im looking forward to start school, i actually want to start studying, so i can get my basics over with. I want to start my major...NOW.. hopefully i can transfer in december to st.marys. This time i am going...no matter what. Well life at abercrombie is treating me well. i think i would enjoy a lot more if they didnt play that damn music. i hear the same song 3 times in one day! fuck no i just sing along to them now. might as well cope with it..well then i do believe its time to go to the gym.. it was nice writing in this journal. ill leave ya'll with a quote

How happy is the blameless vestal's lot! The world forgetting, by the world forgot. Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind! – Alexander Pope
 
     
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12:31pm 29/07/2005
 
mood: uncomfortable
are we falling apart?
i trust her.
.."i think we'll last a while"
 
     
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11:03am 29/07/2005
  You can ask me up to 10 questions!

No matter how, rude, random, sexual, or pointless

I promise to answer them 100% truthfully 100% of the time.

All questions are confidential
 
     
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10:58am 26/07/2005
  i dont feel like my self anymore..  
     
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ya no pienses mas   
10:55am 26/07/2005
  destapa el champaigne
apaga la luces
dejemos las velas encendidas
y afuera las heridas

ya no pienses mas
en nuestro pasado
hagamos que choquen nuestar copas
por habernos encontrado

y porque puedo mirar el cielo
besar tu manos
sentir tu cuerpo
decir tu nombre
y las caricias seran la briza
que aviva el fuego de nuestro amor
... de nuestro amor

puedo ser luz de noche
ser luz de dia
frenar el mundo
por un segundo
y las caricias seran la briza
que aviva el fuego de nuestro amor
... de nuestro amor

el tiempo dejo
su huella imborrable
y aunque nuestras vidas son distintas
esta noche todo vale

tu piel y mi piel
ves que se reconocen
es la memoria que hay
en nuestros corazones

porque puedo mirar el cielo
besar tu manos
sentir tu cuerpo
decir tu nombre
y las caricias seran la briza
que aviva el fuego de nuestro amor
... de nuestro amor

puedo ser luz de noche
ser luz de dia
frenar el mundo
por un segundo
y que me digas
cuanto querias
que esto pasara una ves mas
y otra ves mas

porque puedo ser luz de noche
ser luz de dia
frenar el mundo
por un segundo
y que me digas
cuanto querias
que esto pasara una ves mas
y otra ves mas
y otra ves mas

sin tu amor no se vivir
por que sin tu amor yo me voy a morir de penaaa!!
 
     
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11:07pm 24/07/2005
 
mood: sick
I feel that when I'm old
I'll look at you and know
The world was beautiful

You're the words that come out easy,
And I am speechless at best.
Your star it seems to shine above the rest.
You're the face before the cameras,
The smile i'd like to earn.
The closest thing to perfect,
In a hollywood to burn.
You're the beauty that is deeper,
Than eyes can merely see.
The closest thing to perfect.
But the farthest thing from me.
I'd love to be,
The shoulder that you cry on.
I'd love to be,
The friend you call when things are great.

You're the dream that hasn't ended,
And I'm still anxious for rest.
Your words they seem to hang above my head.
You're the bud before the flower,
Unfurls into full bloom.
Captivating beauty,
But it maybe all too soon.
You're the song that writes a story,
But leaves a lot to read.
The closest thing to perfect,
But the farthest thing from me.

Some things can never be explained
Why every sky still looks the same
And I wonder how my world would look without you
Some things can never be explained
Why does your love remain unchanged?
'Cause I know it wouldn't be the same without you

california is truely amazing..
 
     
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still going strong   
01:36am 20/07/2005
 
mood: discontent
am i loosing what i've worked for?
i wont give up with out a fight.
would you give it up?
i've worked too hard.
dont let this happen..
 
     
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coming clean   
03:26am 16/06/2005
 
mood: okay
Life has unusual methods to inform you of your doings whether right or wrong.
Just a ramdom thought.
All is good.
Im greatfull.
 
     
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